On Saturday, I went to Walmart, which is one of my all-time favorite stores, in search of four t-shirts with a superhero on it. Needless to say, as usual, I ended up coming out of the store with more than what I went in for. One of those items was a Crockpot, a.k.a. “Slow-cooker”. Lately, I have tried to become a lot more open to things that I wouldn’t normally try out of fear. You’ll have to stick around for the blog about my fears to understand why. Since I bought it, on sale I might add, I have searched for different recipes to try. Today, I cooked barbeque ribs. The recipe called for the ribs to cook on low for 8-10 hours or on high for 4-6 hours. Of course, I put it on high because I was home sick and didn’t need it to take all day to cook. Being that I knew the time frame it was going to take, it didn’t stop me from checking it, which felt like, to me, every five minutes. When I’m cooking, I’m used to a certain aroma filling the house. While these ribs were in process, I wasn’t smelling that sweet fragrance of the honey barbecue sauce I put on top. Because I knew that the ribs were going to take a long time, I cooked something else in the oven, at the same time I put the ribs on, that I knew would only take an hour to cook, just in case the kids or I became hungry before the ribs were ready. This process helped me today because a lot of times, I find myself doing this in my life.
I am not ashamed to say that I am apart of the “microwave era” or “microwave generation”. We want everything done right away, sometimes without having to wait or work hard for it. And, I can speak for myself, I will try to find something to “help me out while I wait”, which sometimes just becomes a temporary fix and, most of the time, unfulfilling. Where I see this analogy most, is in relationships. I don’t have a long list of qualities that I believe my ideal guy would have, but I do have a list. At times, I will bypass some things that I am not all the way comfortable with for the fact of me not wanting to be alone or, even, passing up who might really be for me. It doesn’t have to only be in dating, but in friendships as well. Another example would be in choosing where to live. My children’s father and I moved in with my mom when our youngest son was born in May of 2013. We tried everything in our power to move out because we knew we needed our own. We took all kinds of risks where it left us broke and, even, got us caught up in a scam. We were willing to make whatever sacrifice needed in order to move out of my mother’s house, even if we could not afford it. We didn’t even have to like the area or the appearance. It was just a place to stay.
I know from my own life’s lessons, you have to be very careful and specific in what you ask God for. From experience, I have come to the conclusion that if I ask God to help me with my patience, I’m going to end up learning how to wait for something that I so deeply desire. Now, I am learning to wait on God myself. What I do ask for is His guidance and direction, so I won’t be lead astray. God knows my heart and my desires. He knows what I want, and He’s the only one who knows what I need. I’m learning more and more daily to totally depend and trust in Him and His plans for me. My next question would be, what do I do while I wait? I praise and thank Him for what I already have. Be blessed.